Sacred Becoming

Category: General Wellness

  • Finding Mama Spirit

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    I’m journeying back to find that place.  The place where my mama spirit burst open and showed me the courage, the power, the truth that is me.  Pieces of me that I hoped were there but never fully knew until one day a few Aprils ago. 

    I came upon a time in my life where I felt both more empowered than ever before and more out of control than ever before, and it taught me to trust myself, listen to myself, and understand myself in new ways.

     

    During this time, I never doubted – not once, that I was exactly who I needed to be in this moment of my life.  I felt secure in the choices that I made, confident, radiant, and in my element so completely.  Others may have doubted for me (I know some did) and others were rocks of support.

     

    What was most important was that no matter what I faced, I did not doubt myself.

     

    This was a new feeling to me.  Throughout my life, I had doubted.

     

    • Doubted the work I was doing in school. 

     

    • Doubted that I took the right path in college, and in choice of jobs after I graduated. 

     

    • Doubted that I was going to “figure my life out” and be able to live feeling happy and fulfilled with the work I would do. 

     

    • Doubted that I could trust another so deeply so as to have a long lasting, committed relationship. 

     

    I doubted myself deeply.

     

    This place in my life that brought me to my center, that helped me look inward and see who I truly was at my core, no longer surrounded by all the negative talk I often gave myself, was one of the greatest gifts of my life. 

     

    This time of feeling so connected to my mama spirit receded and opened space for my self-doubting tendencies to return.  “No,” I thought to myself, this is not what I want.  I want my life to be full of courage, love, and self-trust.  Knowing that it had found me once, I was sure it could find me again, and I began to search.

     

    Searching often takes us on many journeys that are not our intended path.

     

    • When I met Jon, the love of my life for the past 12 years, I was not searching. 

     

    • When I found what I feel is becoming my life’s work, I was not searching. 

     

    • When I found my mama spirit, I was not searching. 

     

    Once again, I discovered that my mama spirit would have to find me, and it would not likely appear when I was waiting, looking, searching.

     

    I came to realize that mama spirit is always there, whether I see her, am in tune with her, or not.

     

    • She is there in the whisper of happiness. 

     

    • She is there in restful, peaceful sleep. 

     

    • She is there amidst a tickle fight full of joyous laughter. 

     

    • She is there in my heart, always. 

     

    In stillness, in quiet, in those moments of not searching, she finds her way back to me, giving me the courage to connect to the truth that is me.

     

     

    Peace, Love, and Wellness,

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  • Passing on more than our stories…

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    The last few months have found us visiting my grandmother a lot, and I have to say that I’m really grateful. Getting to share the joy of Chloe at age 2 with my 93 year old grandmother is a blessing beyond words.The time together has gotten me thinking a lot about what ties the generations to each other, what bonds family from generation to generation.  Part of it is story.

    The last time we visited, my grandmother shared her birth stories with me and it was fascinating to see what has evolved in our family.  Her mother and sisters all gave birth at home.  My grandmother was the youngest, and all three of her children were born in a hospital.  My mother gave birth to me in a hospital.  I spent most of my labor at home and then welcomed Chloe into the world at The Birth Center.  I wonder what the future will look like in our family.

    There is more that binds us than story, and some of what I’ve learned in recent months I am eager to share.

    What I now know actually empowers me to help determine the health and well being not only of myself and Chloe, but of her children, and yes, even her grandchildren.

    How amazing is that?!

    Did you know that if you’re pregnant with a baby girl, her eggs are formed during the fifth month of pregnancy?

    That means, among many other things, that your health, your choices and the environment that you’re exposed to during pregnancy not only affect your baby but have the potential to affect her babies as well.

    It goes beyond that, because many of the chemicals that we’re exposed to these days have been found to actually change our DNA, meaning that the impact can be felt for many generations to come.

    The first thing that I found fascinating about this is that the egg that I came from was actually created in my grandmother’s womb.  That connects me to her on an entirely different level than any story ever could.

    The second thing made me pause.  I know that I tried to clean up my eating and lifestyle habits before I got pregnant, and I know I wasn’t where I hoped to be by the time I was pregnant with Chloe.  What will that mean for her health?  For the health of her children?

    I came to realize something, and this is the message I want to share with you today.

    I could drive myself crazy with guilt about what I had and hadn’t done, worry about what would happen in the future, and overwhelm about how to make a million changes that I hadn’t yet made.

    That would serve no one for a few reasons, not the least of which is that stress itself is a toxin, so I’d be adding to my toxic environment by worrying too much about it!

    What I decided to do instead was to learn as much as I can, to make choices that feel right for my family, and to teach with love as I share these findings with other mamas and mamas-to-be.

    It’s not about feeling this sense of all or nothing.

    It’s not about living life in fear.

    It’s about living life from a place of joy and love, and doing what you can to set yourself and your family up for health and wellness, now and for generations to come.

    When my grandmother was pregnant with my mother, most of the chemicals that we’ve been exposed to in our lifetime didn’t even exist.  It’s a whole new world out there and I’m here to support and guide you through it, whether you are still thinking of conceiving, pregnant, or are already a mama.

    Are you ready to release the worry and find the joy? Click here to get the conversation started.

    Peace, Love, and Wellness,

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